P90X - Day 32

March 21, 2012

 

Workout:
     BACK & BICEPS… this one was a killer! SO much fun though! TONS of new moves, and TONS of curls!
     After having spent the last 36 hours almost, working on a baby quilt for a church activity, it was getting really late by the time the activity was over. I really did not want to do any workout let alone pump iron over my head and do pull-ups! I called my hubby and asked him if he was still wanting to go to the gym and he replied that he did not, I then promptly asked if he would come with me anyways and he says “I thought you didn’t want to go cause it’s so late” at which point I had an epiphany and I said “Honey, your right, I don’t want to go, but that is precisely why I need too. I don’t want to lose my initiative and I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE TO START THIS ALL OVER AGAIN! At this moment in time I am very proud of myself for powering through my sluggish desire!
     Earlier in the day I had popped in the workout DVD and had pre-viewed the new moves, so I took the record sheet that corresponds with the DVD with me to the gym and my hubby and I did the workout together. We only about did about 2/3rds of the moves but we put in a 45 minute circuit workout in the process, so I am pleased!

Diet:
     After my stress filled 36 hours , we ended up renting a movie and having an impromptu “date night” just the hubby and I after the gym. Unfortunately I did not say no to every thing I should have, but my calorie count is fine.

1 ½ c honey nut crunch cereal
1 c milk
2 c water
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Cheese stick
1 sm brownie
2 c water
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½ oz almonds
½ protein bar
2c water
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1 c Mexican cornbread casserole
1 tbsp. sour cream
1 tbsp green salsa
2 c water
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1 serv. Reeses pieces
1 serv. Charelston chews mini’s
3 c popcorn
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1735 cals


~Laura~

Excuses, Excuses, Excuses..... Nope None Here!

     Did you miss me??? Can you believe that after all this talking about being motivated and focused, I just missed a WHOLE WEEK!! I would say that I am ashamed except for once in my life I'm not. Most of my problems with weight I feel have been the direct result of wallowing in my own ___________ (enter any of these emotions) - pity / grief / worry / shame / self loathing / anger / sadness.  Am I sad tht I managed to lose my focus so early on, YES. What I am going to do is NOT let it set me back from reaching my goals! My whole adult life up to this point has been setback after setback, NO MORE!

     Have you ever noticed that overweight/fat women tend to be very perky & bubbly??? That's because we use the food we gorge on to get a "high" during our personal pity parties and can thus go on about our day acting as if NOTHING is bothering us! I have always used food as a coping tool for my emotions. I am trying desperatley to change this behavior.

     So as to be accountable to you all I have not been totally off my game. I have worked out 2 out of the last 7 days at my gym and have overate 2 days. My weight today was the same as my last weigh in (... it was my cycle this week - go figure :-)) I have not been sedetary at all, as part of the reason for my loss of focus was how incredibly busy we have been! I went ahead and did my wednesday P90X shoulders & arms dvd today and will begin blogging my daily info starting tommorow. I am just going to consider this missed week a wash and begin my P90X countdown at Day 12.

~ Laura ~

Starting Today

       You may have noticed some BIG changes on my blog. Let me take a minute to explain what is going on around here

        I have removed ALL except for one of the previous posts for the last 2 years. During the last 12 months I have REALLY been struggling with even caring about my weight, let alone blogging about my struggles. Bringing home Kya last August on a ventilator has been more challenging than I ever believed it would be. Physically I do fine, but there is hardly anything left inside me emotionally after a long day, and the last thing I feel like doing is pushing myself to be healthy (because it is a constant struggle!). 

       Every time I logged on to begin typing about an experience or challenge, I would find myself reading old posts and feeling HORRIBLE about all the effort I had gone through in order to be successful in my weight loss, only to have it all gone by the wayside. I can honestly say that it was killing me inside to face my failures. I was so disgusted with myself for giving up after all that hard work.

       So today was about clearing out all my regrets. I'm sorry to those of you who have enjoyed seeing the back-log of events, but I needed a clean slate. 

Starting today  - I am beginning my journey anew!

Starting today - I am not going to let the failures of the past haunt me anymore!

Starting today - I am going to make my well being a PRIORITY in my life!

Starting today - I will love the feel of the wind in my hair as I run and I will live for the sweat of brow! 

Enjoy the ride,

Laura